just a thought

* Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only what you are expecting to give. - Katherine Hepburn

I have to admit, the past week little things have popped up that made me wonder what I was thinking in my last relationship. Not so much missing being together, but looking back at the very balance that was thrown out of whack with us.

I won't even begin to compare that relationship to what I have now. Every relationship is different and organic and should grow from the two people and their connection. Luckily, or as painfully perfect in timing as it was...it ended with a resounding crash.

Knowing that my worth was not based on whether or not he loved me, helped me move on. I am not saying I didn't have lows...but knowing that who I am and who I am growing into...well, its more than I was giving myself credit for. My friends couldn't make me see that, and I know more than one of them were concerned when I hadn't shaken it off after a month or so...but they also trusted that I had the resilience to stand up, brush myself off and walk forward...no matter the pace. No one else on this planet can make you believe that YOU are it. I am not talking about conceit, or bravado, or cockiness. I am talking about that internal flame that burns with the understanding that only you can feed it. You can react to external sources, yes...but its your desire, your love that adds fuel and keeps it going. When you rely on outside sources, you may get a flicker, hell you may get a nice bonfire going for a while, but it doesn't last like the fuel you provide. It will burn out, fade away and leave you cold.

There is this corny Christian song called "If you could see what I see". Sometimes you want people to let their eyes be controlled by yours. There are too many valuable people who let their hearts be steered by others - the attention or lack of attention, and they don't grab love in the most resource rich area ever - themselves.

I am not Dr Phil. I am just a 28 year old girl who is learning every day that something I thought I knew all these years could be or is wrong or has evolved. So, I might post something new in a month about love. But for now, it's all about loving me. It should be all about loving you. What grows out of that and spills onto someone else and forms a relationship that is solid...well that, my friends...is called gravy. And we all love gravy. ;)

I think I missed my calling....

As a receptionist :)

LABOR DAY!!!

I don't know how many of you would be interested, but on Labor Day - there will be FREE YOGA all over the city of Dallas. I believe it is ANY yoga studio...first come, first served. (essentially, get there and snag some mat space!!)

If any of you would like to attend a yoga class with me (Power Yoga - Vinyasa), let me know...I definitely want to go to class that day.

***NOTE...I will now be in Houston cuddling with my new nephews...SORRY...but if you want to go, let me know...and I will get the info to you!!!***

HUGS

gambling problem?

I tend to err on the side of not gambling. In many respects, I think this can be considered a problem because the less you risk, the less you stand to gain.

Aside from my lack of interest in actual gambling (poker, sports bets, etc etc)...I see a need to take bigger gambles in my life. In the past few months...I have made a few gambles that I am now seeing returns on (or the beginnings of returns). Some of them have turned out to be mind-blowingly great and better than I originally hoped for. Some of them are less than great...but may open opportunities for greatness in the near future.

All things considered, I am glad I took those risks and moved in the direction I did. I may not currently be happy with some of the results...but that is part of the gamble...and I am willing to try something different in a new gamble to make my game the best it can be.

my fortune cookie sucks

I got this fortune from a cookie, I don't know...maybe er...7 months ago.

"An enjoyable vacation is awaiting you very soon"

Ok...so I have had some enjoyable weekend trips...but nothing that really constitutes a vacation. I think I may have trapped the fortune energy by taping it to my monitor at work. Maybe it can't work if it is sealed against a glowing mind trap of a box. Hmm. That's a thought.

it's been a while...

Since I have posted. Sigh. I am sorry!
I am bouncing between my Myspace blog and this one...even though I said I was done with the other one. :) Got alot of peeps on that site that I have to keep updated, right? :)

Anyways...so much is going on. CJ is getting much closer to her due date. Actually she is going to meet with her doctor today...anxious to hear what they said. Went to visit her and the rest of the fam in Houston over the weekend. It was a great time. I needed some family connection, ya know? I miss my sister and my mom.

Bike hashed yesterday...great times! I actually will be the hare (which means they actually picked Mike but thought I would look better in the jersey) for the September bike hash. WOOT

Suze is back from her long vacation. THANK GOODNESS....I am hitting yoga tonight...I didn't go at all last week and I can feel it. grrr

HUGS

Quotes I love

I am a quote-a-holic. I have collected different lists of quotes over the years and in the process of compiling them...I thought I would share a hadnful of my favorites from my collection. Hope you enjoy these as much as I do.

* Some women follow their dreams, others mercilessly chase them down until the catch them. - Unknown

* Our main business is not to see what lies dimly in the distance, but to do what lies clearly at hand. - Thomas Carlyle

* Hell, there are no rules here! We're trying to accomplish something. - Thomas A. Edison

* It's funny about life: if you refuse to accept anything but the very best, you will very often will get it. - William Somerset Maugham

* Beware the lollipop of mediocrity. Lick it once, and you suck forever. - Unknown

* You cannot build a reputation on things you are going to do. - Henry Ford

* Life has its own hidden forces which you can only discover by living. - Soren Kierkegaard

* Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can. - Danny Kaye

* Life's a bitch, and life's got lots of sisters. - Ross Prenner

* Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only what you are expecting to give. - Katherine Hepburn

* Waste no more time talking about great souls and how they should be. Become one yourself! - Marcus Aurelius

* Only a life lived for others is worth living. - Albert Einstein