I am down in Houston. Yesterday I got all geared up, sat through endless hours of classes and setup info sessions, and then came home and had dinner with my friend Samantha. She is VERY kindly letting me stay with her until I figure out what to do next. THANK YOU GIRL!
There are many possibilities for where I will actually be assigned. One is Houston proper, one is Lufkin, one is Sugarland. The possibility for being located in a completely different area is out there too. So, I have no idea where I will be tomorrow. Part of that is exciting, but mostly I am just waiting. Waiting waiting waiting.
Next step will be to find out where I am assigned. Depending on location, I may need to start a search for hotel rooms near the office. If it is in Houston, or one of the surrounding suburbs, I might stay with Sam a bit longer while I figure out what other housing options are available. If it is in Lufkin, at least I could come home more. But....we will see! I am just hoping (and assuming) they won't tell me I need to go up to Ohio or Tennessee...I mean, I am already here! sigh
After that, it sounds like I will be immediately assigned my own claims. I thought I would get to shadow someone for a few days, but apparently that is not the case. Soooooo trial by fire. "Here's all your stuff, go do claims". Luckily I am not scared to ask questions and ask someone to double check my work!! hehehe
Aside from that...
My allergies are still kicking.
I miss Mike.
I am not used to getting up at 5:30am. Kinda sucks. But I am sure my internal clock will adjust. Get ready Mike...when I come home, we are gonna be getting up early again! heheheheh
Love you guys, many hugs...will post again soon.
Becky
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
a new chapter
So today I got the call. My deployment location for my new job is Spring, TX. I have to be there at 7am for orientation, etc etc.
I have a vast many feelings/emotions going on right now. Mainly, I am nervous and scared. This could be a cluster of infinite proportions. Or it could be greatness.
I won't know immediately, or even in a month, most likely....but I feel like this is the best choice right now.
Mike is right beside me and supporting me, my friends and family are doing the same.
So, after all this craziness...I am officially out of the mortgage business and heading into a different kind of storm. Let's see how I do. :) Logging off and will try to update as regularly as I can.
Many hugs,
Becky
I have a vast many feelings/emotions going on right now. Mainly, I am nervous and scared. This could be a cluster of infinite proportions. Or it could be greatness.
I won't know immediately, or even in a month, most likely....but I feel like this is the best choice right now.
Mike is right beside me and supporting me, my friends and family are doing the same.
So, after all this craziness...I am officially out of the mortgage business and heading into a different kind of storm. Let's see how I do. :) Logging off and will try to update as regularly as I can.
Many hugs,
Becky
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
"The universe is a big place, perhaps the biggest."
So I have alot on my mind right now. Its not a bad thing, but it can be cumbersome.
There are times when I see something in front of me, whether it be a creek crossing that I need to power through on my bike....or something bigger in the scale of life. I can either psyche myself out and talk myself out of it, or I can clip in, pedal and get up the other side. What's the worst that can happen? I fall down? Get scraped up? Bruise my tailbone (or crack it...I don't know, but it hurts like a MOFO!) Anyways, point is...I don't know unless I try. I could be terribly successful and show off my prowess and grow as a person. But if I don't, can you actually regress in personal growth? Are fear and responsibility always so tenaciously bound? My fear of not being able to take care of my own chit (also part and parcel of being fiercely independent) could be holding me back from trying something new. Is that why I push so violently against any group that uses fear to herd their followers? They say that you hate things in others that you tend to have in your own personality. Am I asking too many questions? Is there something to be said for "shutup and ride"?
As a side note, I have allowed myself to get so far into my head that I actually am wearing my undies inside out because I wasn't paying attention when getting dressed this morning. What a way to find out I have too much going on in my noggin.
Sigh.
There are times when I see something in front of me, whether it be a creek crossing that I need to power through on my bike....or something bigger in the scale of life. I can either psyche myself out and talk myself out of it, or I can clip in, pedal and get up the other side. What's the worst that can happen? I fall down? Get scraped up? Bruise my tailbone (or crack it...I don't know, but it hurts like a MOFO!) Anyways, point is...I don't know unless I try. I could be terribly successful and show off my prowess and grow as a person. But if I don't, can you actually regress in personal growth? Are fear and responsibility always so tenaciously bound? My fear of not being able to take care of my own chit (also part and parcel of being fiercely independent) could be holding me back from trying something new. Is that why I push so violently against any group that uses fear to herd their followers? They say that you hate things in others that you tend to have in your own personality. Am I asking too many questions? Is there something to be said for "shutup and ride"?
As a side note, I have allowed myself to get so far into my head that I actually am wearing my undies inside out because I wasn't paying attention when getting dressed this morning. What a way to find out I have too much going on in my noggin.
Sigh.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
List : 30
I am a list maker. Somehow it helps my brain unwind and unveil and sometimes, unhinge ;)
My new list is about "What I want to accomplish in my 30th year of life". That's a long title, but it sounded better than "What I want to do when I am 30"....ok, both titles suck. But you get the idea. This list is subject to change and grow and shrink. I turn 30 in November, so I figured I might as well plan now.
So, without further ado...and adon't, here is the list:
- go somewhere tropical for at least 3 days (1 day spent being completely lazy and sitting in a hammock while someone brings me fruity drinks and/or ice cold Pacificos ALL DAMN DAY)
- participate in (and hopefully finish) at least ONE 100k off-road cycling event (Ouachita Challenge and Chupacabras are both on the list as options...if I do both, I get a bye when I turn 40..ha!)
- actually RUN a 25k or longer trail run (ok, I have done a dozen or so of these, but I walk 85% or more of the trails. I don't count Tyler as having run it, because I did a death march/hike for the last four miles. Races I could accomplish this mission at include, but are not limited to: Bandera, Tyler, Hog's Hunt, and Palo Duro)
- lay an epic hash trail (will have to eye the calendar for an appropriate weekend)
- do Rivercities and actually train for the event. Heheheh (No shots the night before or day of, AP!!)
- "tentatively" Commute to work by bicycle 2x a week (weather and schedule permitting). This is tentative because I will be doing my first real commute this Friday (hopefully) and I will either LOVE it or HATE it. So, its up in the air...
- save some dough (simple, yes...but I want to put a decent chunk in savings)
- research schools and talk to an advisor about what I would need to do to get my degree...finally.
- audition for a local play or musical (KK, you in????)
- do the 365 challenge with my camera and ACTUALLY stick to it this time (I think I got to like, er...98 on the last one)
- bake a pie from scratch (don't ask...been on my list for years)
- become a good driver of a standard car (Mike...I will be using the Toaster more...lol)
- learn to ride a regular motorcycle (might enlist Doc's help here...or LK's? heheh)
- go to Austin to see the bats at Congress Street Bridge (if you know me, you know this is a big deal...it will either kill me or make me stronger)
Ok...that's all I can think of right now. :) Will add more, change crap and/or delete some as time goes by. Till then, marvel at my willingness and courage to put on paper what I hope and plan on accomplishing. (feel free to hold me to it...lol)
On-On
Becky
My new list is about "What I want to accomplish in my 30th year of life". That's a long title, but it sounded better than "What I want to do when I am 30"....ok, both titles suck. But you get the idea. This list is subject to change and grow and shrink. I turn 30 in November, so I figured I might as well plan now.
So, without further ado...and adon't, here is the list:
- go somewhere tropical for at least 3 days (1 day spent being completely lazy and sitting in a hammock while someone brings me fruity drinks and/or ice cold Pacificos ALL DAMN DAY)
- participate in (and hopefully finish) at least ONE 100k off-road cycling event (Ouachita Challenge and Chupacabras are both on the list as options...if I do both, I get a bye when I turn 40..ha!)
- actually RUN a 25k or longer trail run (ok, I have done a dozen or so of these, but I walk 85% or more of the trails. I don't count Tyler as having run it, because I did a death march/hike for the last four miles. Races I could accomplish this mission at include, but are not limited to: Bandera, Tyler, Hog's Hunt, and Palo Duro)
- lay an epic hash trail (will have to eye the calendar for an appropriate weekend)
- do Rivercities and actually train for the event. Heheheh (No shots the night before or day of, AP!!)
- "tentatively" Commute to work by bicycle 2x a week (weather and schedule permitting). This is tentative because I will be doing my first real commute this Friday (hopefully) and I will either LOVE it or HATE it. So, its up in the air...
- save some dough (simple, yes...but I want to put a decent chunk in savings)
- research schools and talk to an advisor about what I would need to do to get my degree...finally.
- audition for a local play or musical (KK, you in????)
- do the 365 challenge with my camera and ACTUALLY stick to it this time (I think I got to like, er...98 on the last one)
- bake a pie from scratch (don't ask...been on my list for years)
- become a good driver of a standard car (Mike...I will be using the Toaster more...lol)
- learn to ride a regular motorcycle (might enlist Doc's help here...or LK's? heheh)
- go to Austin to see the bats at Congress Street Bridge (if you know me, you know this is a big deal...it will either kill me or make me stronger)
Ok...that's all I can think of right now. :) Will add more, change crap and/or delete some as time goes by. Till then, marvel at my willingness and courage to put on paper what I hope and plan on accomplishing. (feel free to hold me to it...lol)
On-On
Becky
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
thoughts on a Tuesday
No matter what you say, someone...somewhere...will take it the wrong way. Even if your intention was innocuous humor, it is completely possible that someone will think it is attacking their very framework of faith.
In a recent case, I find myself in a somewhat awkward position of trying not to offend or hurt someone I really care about. I regard this person highly and appreciate that they just have a different belief and passion for religion than I do. By my posting a seemingly harmless quote, I must have hit a nerve. I didn't mean to...but sometimes that nerve is sensitive because of something completely unrelated to me. While they take a posture that could be construed (if I allowed myself to give in to such thoughts) as condescending, I have to remind myself that in reality...they just read it with a different voice than I wrote it (and as such, I could be reading their response in an entirely voice than THEY wrote it). That is part of life. Whether speaking, writing, dancing, walking, breathing or even just BEING...all actions are open to interpretation and are colored by the observers own life and soul.
So....I will think more about it, but not let it bother me. They didn't mean to hurt or offend me either, they just wanted to lay out their argument against what they thought I was saying. Ahhh circles.
In a recent case, I find myself in a somewhat awkward position of trying not to offend or hurt someone I really care about. I regard this person highly and appreciate that they just have a different belief and passion for religion than I do. By my posting a seemingly harmless quote, I must have hit a nerve. I didn't mean to...but sometimes that nerve is sensitive because of something completely unrelated to me. While they take a posture that could be construed (if I allowed myself to give in to such thoughts) as condescending, I have to remind myself that in reality...they just read it with a different voice than I wrote it (and as such, I could be reading their response in an entirely voice than THEY wrote it). That is part of life. Whether speaking, writing, dancing, walking, breathing or even just BEING...all actions are open to interpretation and are colored by the observers own life and soul.
So....I will think more about it, but not let it bother me. They didn't mean to hurt or offend me either, they just wanted to lay out their argument against what they thought I was saying. Ahhh circles.
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